Should we live again? Perhaps one more time? In your heart, you know, we live but once. This time.

I am one accustomed to living my dreams... I am one accustomed to living in the dark My eyes see only memories My ears hear meadowlarks If I smile for you now My teeth will fall out And my sweet smile Turn into a blazing shout of "Wait for me, dear, in gardens and in streams. Someday I'll grow arms If only in my dreams".

When I sat on the edge of the Abyss of Days My self looked back at me in wonder When I sat on the edge of The Abyss of Days My self asked me where I'd been "To the Land-Where-Everything-is-Lost, And to the sea that no longer knows me. And to the sky, the sky, that great open eye, that rolled backwards into its starry lid to gather the moon lens." When I sat on the Abyss of Days this is what my self said to me, "Gather rain in a bowl, gather pollen in a sack, trace your name in blood through time, never ever look back."

"Time has stopped. Time died." ohio, ohio, ohio, noib, ohio.

It has been seconds since my childish dreams were destroyed, Since my smile became a proclamation of the world's wound. It has been minutes since my childish dreams were destroyed, Since my smile became a proclamation of the world's wound. It has been hours since my childish dreams were destroyed, Since my smile became a proclamation of the world's wound. It has been days since my childish dreams were destroyed, Since my smile became a proclamation of the world's wound. It has been weeks since my childish dreams were destroyed, Since my smile became a proclamation of the world's wound. It has been months since my childish dreams were destroyed, Since my smile became a proclamation of the world's wound. It has been years since my childish dreams were destroyed...

This is the shivering window that let them in The needle-pin that only catches at the eye's golden rim O, dear Eye that softly looks, Glance swiftly lest they set The unicorn's trap for you Without reflection Within remorse Without reason Within your course In time your soul do keep Forever lose conscience Instead of sleep Let the darkest night slip away Do not bind it with the moon Let it slip away like sorrow or a tune Let the light of day slip away Do not bind it with the sun Let it slip away like songs unsung

I wait in silence Birds fly backwards Children, like insects trapped in amber, Frozen in a moment, Not yet completed a ring around the rosey Mariam comes to me and smiles A cabinet in her chest opens To reveal a dragon in the shape of a little girl I crawl into its mouth And wait in darkness The hand of the clock reaches out and takes mine We walk barefoot through fields of snow And come to a blood red rosebush A bee buzzes the secrets of his honeycomb home Into the ear of a single rose Whose petals close on their conversation As a door on a hidden rite It fades to green, becomes a bud I wait in silence It opens again  A newborn babe lies within Sacred creation of their copulation Was this rose a whorehouse?  I steal the child  And race through a garden overgrown with weeds A bone-colored gryphon, Drawing circles in the soil, Asks where I might place the seed "Unto the earth! Unto the earth! You see, the child is but a worm. It is unborn." He takes the child from me And plants it tenderly in the dirt "You cannot give what isn't yours to take," He smiles. And I wait in shame. Dew crawls across the blades of grass  And falls into the sky, Quenching the clouds' thirst They cry from the want of it I'll drown unless they stop their crying The world is blanketed in a warm, shallow ocean of tears Little birds sing, "it will leave us nowhere to land"! Christ's body floats to the surface and they sing again, "It will lead us from nowhere to land"! They take the oars and his body as a ship, Now happily singing seafaring songs. I wait in silence as they disappear beyond the horizon. A dappled gray horse idles slowly across the water to me He stands on human legs His arm stretches out and points the way "Go hither but never wither". And so I begin my journey in silence. Is westward the way home? Can I go where once I could not roam? I'm washed up on an emerald green island I see an alabaster salamander in a blue-green bottle I cannot have it though my need is great. Kate skips and sings in the woods but I cannot catch her. Jeweled dragonflies carry me away to the place where I was born They whisper my name  And say my hair was once the color of corn Stars fall to earth And I am surrounded by fireflies They hum and circle lazily about I wait in silent spaces He comes to me in a boat  With Chinese lanterns and laughter We drag our fingers across the sky And create shimmering ripples, Bending the starlight The earth is now frozen in thought A halo of fish around his head His eyes dance as if lit by flame Diana picks up her skirts, Sparkling rays of moonlight, And exits the ballroom of night  Whispering, "I must go and kill my husband now". A golden stag charges up from the distance, Mariah in all her painted glory, I close my eyes and am afraid I open them and I am blind The boat breaks apart The planks hover over the water like vapor Then disappear I lie down I am alone floating over the water Like a dry leaf I will not sink I will not be undone. I land on the Edge of Reason In a soft field of swaying green grass While the weaver spins life's tales before my eyes "Oh Eight-Legged-Scribe-of-the-World's-Wonders, I wonder that there is only one web Though many threads in which we are caught?" She drops down to my ear and whispers, "You have read from my book of knowledge Now you must do me a favor..." She crawls into my brain. There she will nest. When my winter has come, And I am gone to summer fields, When my egg is cracked, Her brood will burst forth On the broken silven strings of Orpheus's lyre And all will be interwoven. But that day is not yet passed And so, again, I wait in silence.